We were in the kitchen and talking with a dear friend and he was sharing with us Jeremiah: 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. As our friend was talking to us about "the good" that God plans for us I had this very clear thought.
God knew that Ryan was only going to be on this earth for twenty years and then He was going to call him home to make a huge impact in many lives. That was always the plan. Knowing this God had to choose Ryan's parents carefully. His parents had to be able to deal wisely with his uniqueness so as not to crush his spirit and then be strong enough to deal with the loss. And this plan was meant "for good and not disaster." So God chose Tom and I twenty years ago to be part of this plan for good. I can honestly say, "What an honor!" Even in the pain, we see good.
|I give you my precious son, Ryan. |
Cherish him, love him, and allow him
to become the young man I designed
him to be.
Psalm 127:3 See, children are a gift from the Lord. The children born to us are our special reward.
With our earthly perspective it would be easy to rant and rave that this isn't fair...we deserve more years with our son. Why did He give him to us if He was only going to take him away? But with a heavenly perspective we can trust God and are grateful that we were chosen to have such a wonderfully unique relationship as parent with this precious gift of a child God rewarded us with for twenty years. Those twenty years with our "gift" shaped us into who we are today. We would never trade that experience just to be relieved of pain.
So now we have to trust God for the rest of the verse, the rest of the story; "....not for disaster, but to give you a future and a hope." That's why life isn't over for us. We have a future and a hope and God has the plan. We trust Him with it.