My writing this blog has been a reflection of my personal journey through pain, loss and sorrow....grief. Others have asked how the rest of my family is doing. They are on their own journeys and I have not wanted to speak for them....but their hole is deep and raw, just like mine; each of us trying to push through this grief in our own way. It takes effort to understand each other's journey as we are often in our own secret place of grief and unable to formulate our thoughts.
I came home from a four day convention last night and became very aware of the individual journeys my family are on. It was easy for me to go away and focus on my own journey for four days.....but I left behind my loved ones who are journeying themselves. Taking myself out of the pit of grief and then coming back in helped me see the acute pain we are ALL working through. My last journal was cautioning myself about getting stuck out on emotional islands. As a family grieves it would be so easy to focus on our individual islands of grief and not be there to pull each other back to the mainland. The best way I know how to do that is to keep encouraging one another to speak and feel our emotions. When we can express our emotions and force ourselves to verbalize and not "stuff", the healing process can begin.
Pray for us as we allow individual journeys, but actively work through our grief and not hide it. We must do this as we try and live our normal lives; graduation, end of school, planning for the future, work, ministry....LIFE! But as Charles Swindoll said, "A teardrop on earth summons the King!" I'm so grateful that through this journey we have the Great Comforter going before us and coming behind us.
|Rob, Luke, Tom, Gail, Amanda, Ryan|
Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted.
It is a promise, and I believe it!